Your Domain

you're slow.

i'm fast.

regardless, tomorrow

we still can't forecast.

patience

how?

frustrated

now.

i want

i need...

as i breathe

i bleed.

you reply 
with words swift.

im unwrapping them

like a gift.

wanting to hear

you want me.

that here,

you will soon be.

but it's not

that gift you gave,

rather it's just

another tidal wave.

you say wait,

i say go.

please show me how

to take it slow. 

fear can push,

fear can shove,

and i don't want to destroy,

what could be love.

swallow my desire,

tighten my rein,

im trying to live

in your domain. 

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heart breaking

Death of girl found in truck in West Palm Beach probed as abuse case - Breaking News - MiamiHerald.com

i do not understand why things like this happen i hope someday i have the ability to have a home and the finances to be a foster parent. how can anyone abuse, let alone torture a child to death? where was dhs? :( sadly abuse goes on every day in every town. no child deserves that, not a single one. uggggh

so so sad:(

Can't read my mind, I'm undefined

Spring shall come soon. Cabin fever perhaps is getting the best of me. That and I think everyone has a breaking point, mine of which I am nearing. It's a self inflected wound. A chaotic life to distract from a lonely one has become counter productive. In the sense that I am no longer superwoman. Not that I ever was, but I seemed to be able to juggle more balls in years past. The normal drama ball is also larger than past, plus adding one for relationships, and not to mention college. Then the main ones...single parenting, working, volunteering here and there, etc etc etc. Fear of failing, fear of losing, and fear of never getting 'THERE" ...those fears are scary. They don't consume me, but accompanied by frustration, they gain power. When is the day coming when I can skate smoothly? I am ready...with open arms. I just want peace. Happiness. Contentment.

I worry I am not good enough.
Jaded?
Or just tainted?
A dirty little secret?

Normal or abnormal, there's no explanation, no reason to explain or elaborate without it sounding minimal. Other than lack of sleep, plus lots of stress and pressure, equate to someone being slightly down. Not on the outs, just blah. Tired of the rat race.

Success is not final, failure is not fatal; it is the courage to continue that counts. Winston Churchill

Recent events (I shall refer to them as "obstacles") are sucking the enthusiasm out of me. I am a product of my choices, as in every decision made, has a result. The product to date isn't exactly something I am content with. However, I've tried to bottle that frustration up and use it as momentum for moving forward. It took me a long time to know that there is no profound destination where happiness will be sought, but rather a learning process of figuring out how to just ENJOY the journey and all the moments along the way. Nonetheless, there are days/nights where sometimes I can't suppress a small amount of doubt or a lack of hope or a feeling of just being somewhat lost. I know that I'll get where I want to go and despite it all, determination is not something I have ever lacked. However, I am just getting a little weary from always "trying" and not seeing the progress as a result. It's as though I am trying to swim across the ocean, but I can still see the shoreline; like I am working so hard, but not getting so far.

Patience patience patience. I have to remember to STOP. Count my blessings - as they are abundant. I am incredibly grateful.

It's just that there's so much more I want and I am patiently trying to be patient - tired of struggling so much. Life is for living. I want to embrace that, but not sure how to do that precisely for much longer when what I am after, is still out of my reach.

Devils and Angels

The World is flat :)

I am posting this, more for myself, to save it but you may find it interesting....maybe?? To me - I find it amazing and exciting....but then again, I am a bit of a dork and am in the field of education, so perhaps that's why I find it so intriguing!!

30 day challenge - Day 1! Pic of me + 15 facts....random at best:)

1. Purple is my color of choice
2. I am a perfectionist...especially at procrastinating
3. Passionate about making a difference, especially in the lives of children
4. Mother to two absolutely amazing children, who are thee light of my life
5. I am addicted to vix (vapor rub)
6. Part of my ancestry is from a country that no longer exists (Bohemia:)
7. I looooove originality....sameness = boring
8. Music is my lifeblood - there is a song that fits my every mood
9. Art is my medium for expression, although I have not painted in 2+ years
10. Huge desire to travel the world - to see different places and faces - to learn about other cultures
11. I have the (dis) ability to see the beauty in everything and everyone
12. I held my grandma's hand, as she passed away. She is my idol and who I want to be like - her heart was bigger than anyone I ever met. Though she had a "hard" life and worked long days, she never ever complained and always maintained faith and compassion for everyone around her.
13. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed with possibilities - so many things to do, ways to give, and places to see - I don't want to miss anything:)
14. I am very afraid of mice, if I see one...I will scream (despite growing up on a FARM!)
15. I don't have a poker face - I am completely an open book

14 months, 42 countries...this guy is my hero!

*SMILE*